--Dana Marie Stella Regan--
Dana ii know that ii haven’t been on the website in a really long time but ii promise you that, that doesn’t mean ii am not thinking of you. instead of things getting better they are getting worse ii miss you more and& more each day. It is become very unbearable and& iidk how to deal with it. There is not one day that goes by that ii don’t think about you. Everything ii do seem to just always remind me of you. Lately ii haven’t been telling anyone how ii feel, ii have just been keeping it in. Yes, ii do know that it’s not the best thing for me but ii just can’t tell people how ii feel anymore, they just don’t seem to understand. They say to me oh ii understand, ii get it, but deep down they don’t have one clue about what I’m talking about and& you know what iidc, it’s whatever to me. It seems like just yesterday you left us. People are always telling me everything happened for a reason and& losing you happened for a reason too but I don’t see it. ii want someone, anyone tell me the reason for losing you. Cause ii will find a better reason for not losing you. ii told you everything about literally and& now that you are gone ii don’t have anyone to talk to. Nobody could ever take your place, no matter how hard they try of how much they think they could help. There are a lot of people who try to be you in my life they try to take your place they try to make me feel better but when they try it makes me miss you more. Almost every night on my laptop ii right to you. ii say how ii feel and& how much ii miss you. In English we are doing scrapbooks and& you are in mine so much it is unbelievable. Here is a letter I wrote to you not to long ago. It doesn’t have everything I’m feeling but it covers a little less than half. Nobody knows the half of what ii am really going threw. iloveyou. Dana Marie Stella Regan <|3 =) ((The letter was in different fonts and& pretty colors.))
Dear Danawana,
Today is an okay day I don’t really know how to explain what my feelings. Things aren’t too bad on my end. I guess things could always be worse.
You and& I are teenagers now =) ;; we hit the double digits that actually mean something. Lately I have been thinking about how Mr. Santos told us that you passed away. I HATE that moment with all my heart and& soul it’s officially the worse moment of my life. Of all people he could say he said you, you were the last person in my mind without a doubt. I was by Savanna’s house and& we were listen to music and& then Hero Heroin come on and& I thought of when you and& I sang it in gym. I started to sing all the words then a tearcame down my cheek and& I thought I could do it, I thought I could listen to all your favorite songs and& think about all the things we did together all the great times we shared, but I couldn’t do it, I just couldn’t. :( I also thought of the fact that I HATE that one day you’re here and& then the next day someone comes and& randomly tells me that I’m never going to see again that no matter how much I wish and& how much I say I’m sorry and& say I will never make a mistake again and& say that I would do anything to bring you back, give everything I have up, you’re never going to come back. The hardest part of it all is that I have no say in this so ever. I have to learn to live and& to deal with it and& remember all the good times we shared. Things aren’t the same anymore Dana. It’s been a little over a TWO months and& there is not one day that goes by that I don’t pass by something that reminds me of you or that I don’t think of you. TWO months to some people is like okay not a big deal but when you have lost someone VERY dear and& close to you like I did TWO months can feel like a life time, and& going through a life time without someone you love is REALLYTRuSt you were always there for me. I told you everything to my concerns ;; my feelings ;; my worries ;; my wonders ;; my entire life. I remember when every morning when I woke up I would call you to make sure you’re awake and& not over sleeping. We used to talk all the time on the phone even if it’s three in the morning I told you if there is anything that you need even if you just need to get something out DON’T hesitate to call me. I have to go out for a little with my sister and& her boyfriend so I just wanted you to know that iloveyou. and& that I hope you had a great birthday and& if anything you can still come to me. Visit anytime you feel like it. Rest in peace and& be happy okay. I will never forget you ever even if someone came and& brain washed me and& ill still remember you and& all of our memories. I miss you so much and& I hope we can see each other again sometime and& hopefully it won’t be to long of a wait. Well I guess this is goodbye and& goodnight for now until I get back home ill light a candle for you when I get back. iloveyou. <3 =) I try not to cry cause I know if you were here you wouldn’t want me crying you would want me to smile so I’m trying to stay strong and& smile but that’s really hard to do without you here by my side. When I think of all the good times we had together and& all of the crazy things we have done together I start to cry and& when I start to cry I can’t stop. Sometimes I wonder why couldn’t it be someone else this happened to and& not you. But then I think to myself then who would it be. Everything happens for a reason but I just can’t seem to understand the reason for this specific thing happening. So many people loved you and& need you in their life. Sometimes I feel like I’m lost and& I don’t know how to fine myself ;; whenever I had felt that way you always knew how to find me and& make me feel like myself again. You brought joy and& happiness into my life from the day you step into it. You were always smiling and& singing and& laughing and& after being with you all the times that I was and& all the times you made me smile, laugh, giggle, and& full of joy I could consider myself the happiest person in the world. I want to thank you for that and& I don’t know how or what to do to pay you back for what you have help me become. You have helped me become happy, full of confidence, and& so much more. Well Dana I just wanna tell you goodnight and& that iloveyou. and& I will never forget you ;; sweet dreams :) XoXo hard. I just wish I could make things right and& you would be with the people who love you dearly again. I have been going through a lot and& whenever I have times like this or things didn’t feel right or I needed someone to talk to that I could fully
If I could only go back in time, if I could get the one wish, if I could only get that second chance to make it all right I would ;; I would protect you like if you were my sister ;; I would never let anything or anyone hurt you ;; you would be by my side every minute, every second so I know that you are okay that you are safe ;; I would do anything for that second chance. No matter how bad I seem to want it nobody wants to give it to me I mean I don’t expect them to cause you don’t know what you have till you’ve lost it ;; but I didn’t wanna lose you I would never wanna lose anyone like you. RiiP Danawana iloveyou. forever and& for always. ||051595||--||031108|| Way too short to call life. Can't wait to see you again. That will be by far the happiest day in my life. Smile for me Dana ii hope your okay. iloveyou. woman :) Gudnite Love. <3
I put a smile on my face to pass the time by and& hide the tears that follow.
-Tiffany =X
That’s the letter I wrote to you probably 4 days ago. ii hope you liked it. =)
Lately I have been thinking about how MrR. Santos told us that you passed away I hate that moment with all my heart and& soul it’s officially the worse moment of my life. I was by Savanna’s house and& we were listen to Hero Heroin and& I thought of when you and& I sang it in gym. I also thought of the fact that I feel really not so good about the fact that one day you’re here and& then the next day someone comes and& randomly tells me that I’m never going to see again that no matter how much I wish and& how much I say I’m sorry and& say I will never make a mistake again and& say that I would do anything to bring you back, give everything I have up, you’re never going to come back and& I have no choice what’s so ever but to deal with it and& remember all the good times we shared. Things aren’t the same anymore Dana. It’s been a little over a month and& there is not one day that goes by that I don’t pass by something that reminds me of you or that I don’t think of you. Two month to some people is like okay only two months but when you have lost someone VERY dear and& close to you two months can feel like a life time, and& goin threw a life time without someone you love is REALLY hard. I just wish I could make things right and& you would be with the people who love you dearly again. I have been going through a lot and& whenever I have times like this or things didn’t feel right or I needed someone to talk to that I could fully trust you were always there for me. I told you everything to my concerns ;; my feelings ;; my worries ;; my wonders ;; my entire life. I remember when every morning when I woke up I would call you to make sure you’re awake and& not over sleeping. We used to talk all the time on the phone even if it’s three in the morning I told you if there is anything that you need even if you just need to get something out don’t hesitate to call me. I just wanted you to know that iloveyou. and& that I hope you had a great birthday and& if anything you can still come to me. Visit anytime you feel like it. Rest in peace and& be happy okay. I will never forget you ever someone can brain wash me and& ill still remember you and& all of our memories. I miss you so much and& I hope we can see each other again sometime and& hopefully it won’t be to long of a wait. Well I guess this is goodbye and& goodnite for now until I get back home ill light a candle for you when I get back. iloveyou. <3 =)Dana, ii try NoT to cry cause ii know if you were here you wouldn’t want me crying you would want me to smile so I’m trying to stay strong and& smile but that’s really hard to do without you here by my side. When ii think of all the good times we had together and& all of the crazy things we have done together ii start to cry and& when ii start to cry ii can’t stop. Sometimes ii wonder why couldn’t ii be the one this happened to and& NoT you so many people loved you and& need you in their life. Sometimes ii feel like I’m lost and& ii don’t know how to fine myself ;; when ever ii had felt that way you always knew how to find me and& make me feel like myself again. You brought joy and& happiness into my life from the day you step into it. You were always smiling and& singing and& laughing and& after being with you all the times ii was with you ii could consider myself the most happiest person in the world. Well Dana ii just wanna tell you goodnite and& that ii love you and& ii will never forget you ;; sweet dreams :] XoXo
If ii could only go back in time if ii could only get that second chance to make it all right ii would ;; ii would protect you like if you were my sister ;; ii would never let anything or anyone hurt you ;; you would be by my side every minute every second so ii know that you are okay that you are safe ;; ii would do anything for that second chance. No matter how bad ii seem to want it nobody wants to give it to me ii mean ii don’t expect them to cause you don’t know what you have till you’ve lost it ;; but ii didn’t wanna lose you ii would never wanna lose anyone like you. <--- ii want that second change so badly someone give it to me. :[
RiiP Danawana iloveyou. ||051595||--||031108|| Can't wait to see you again. That will be by far the happiest day in my life. Smile for me Dana ii hope your okay. iloveyou. woman :] Gudnite Love. <3
Just to let you know my GooDniGhTs never mean goodbye. x3
